Personal goals of an unhappy college student.
Alright, so first off, FIRST BLOG FOR ME!!! I am really excited about this because I think that writing out feelings or expressing them this way is really healthy. I am going back to college, second year. I have many goals that I want to accomplish. So right now, I am not happy. I am not happy with my lifestyle, my appearance, my fat, my tabacco addiction, my drinking, my grades, and just how I live; dirty and messy. So here are a few ways that I am going to try to fix all of these things:
1. First things first. GRADES. I plan on studying/reading every night after class before I go to sleep. If I keep this up, I will have better grades, and will feel better about myself. I plan on going to the study room in my dorm every night, because studying in my dorm room doesn’t work. Cali and Colleen, amazing people by the way, are going to be in the same Res Hall so they can come study with me as well.
2. Second, my appearance/weight. I feel like this is holding me back from many things in life; pretty much my love life suffers because of it. I am fat. I have a belly, boobs, wide hips, and a big ass. I feel like I am ugly, I say it when I am around friends and stuff, they just say= no you’re not, though I feel it on the inside and it sucks. So, I plan on going jogging every night, Monday through Friday, for at lease 45 minutes. Not straight jogging, a type of jog/walk type thing. Cali will be there with me, jogging along side. I know at first, it will suck, though as I continue doing it, it will get a lot easier. Hopefully in a few months, the jogging will show with, I am hoping, a flatter stomach, and then I can go from there. I don’t necessarily want abs or anything like that. I just want pecs and a flat stomach. I feel like I don’t fit in because of this, and hopefully my self conscious will get better. But from the skinniness, I can go from there and work on some muscle. Then I will be happy.
3. My smoking addiction needs to stop. I hate smoking, I can barely breath and it just all around sucks. Socially I started smoking, and then one led to another, and I got kinda hooked. I hate it so much, but kinda really like it. But once I stop smoking, I will be able to breath better and I can get into good shape without it.
4. Eating habits will definitely change. I am picking healthy choices now. No more soda. Maybe I will have a sweet day, but only once a week.
5. Drinking. So, for the first month this semester, I plan on being sober. No alcohol at all. I will be the dd if needed, I will take care of people, I will be the person that will hold your hair back while you are spewing. I like taking care of people, and plus, when it comes to parties, I know how to have a good time, even without alcohol. I will be the “older brother” of the group and try to look out for everyone. Drinking also has a lot of calories, which I don’t need.
6. The mess. MY ROOM IS HORRIBLE. So I am not usually a messy/dirty person, but somehow, freshman year made me this way. It is disgusting, horrifying, and embarrassing. I know this now, and maybe reading it over and over again daily will help me change.
So these are some goals that I want to accomplish this year. They will be tough, many temptations in this world, though, maybe blogging daily will help me out. I have friends that will help me out as well, and I will thank them daily for helping me. This is the beginning of a new life. I am going to clean my room now, and hopefully wake up with a better feeling and a new direction.
